Feeling overwhelmed working, running a home and running my art practice.
I didn’t paint this one but it has resonated with me lately.
Feeling some overwhelm lately as an empath, an artist, working 4 days a week and running a home with adult son’s who are now young men but still needing the secure nest I provide and tend to for them as a single parent.
The empath in me still wants to nurture my boys and make sure they will be ok. It’s easy for me to put out so much but harder to pull back more in.
Although they believe they are so independent, I know true independence doesn’t grow while still living at home enjoying the fruits of my hours of hard work in my paid job, in my art practice and in my household management role.
After day four of my external job I am literally zapped and need the next day (Friday’s) to sleep in a bit, and not rush around much at all. The Friday is usually for my house jobs and work in my art practice.
I find in my 50’s now the slog is felt more than ever. It should be time to slow down working, but while I have a mortgage and two sons living with me I won’t be doing that for now.
These feelings come in peaks and troughs for me and every few months it’s about feeling I really am dragging myself out of bed at 6.12am to start the work day which goes through until 4pm.
And then once I’m home, the next part of my day continues until after I have walked my dog, shopped some days, prepared and cooked our dinner, ask the young adult men I live with to man up and help with the dishes that night.
How good would it be for my brain to not have to ask everyday for their help with cleaning up and whatever else is out of order in our cosy little home.
Others say I needed to have a daughter as they help more, but the feminist in me is glad I only have my two amazing sons. I could not throw a girl into the mix and rely on her more than I do her brothers.
Life in 2025 is a busy one but I keep my goals and dreams in my thoughts as they give me direction of knowing there are more fabulous and exhausting days ahead to live and maybe I’ll go hang from a big old homely tree later. 🌳
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